Let Go, Let God and Let Go Again
Updated: Oct 29, 2018
Trusting in God is hard and is a process as we grow in our relationship with Him. However, the more we are able to trust him, the more our hearts are at peace.
Let Go, Let God and Let Go again.
By David Prosen, Originally posted on Catholic Therapists dot com, May 2012
God wants us to trust Him. There is no way of getting around this. Many scripture verses call us to trust God fully. Although, we are incapable of doing this on our own, all we have to do is ask and He will give us the Graces we need. It’s not easy and it is a process that takes many years. However, our relationship to Christ will become more intimate if we begin working on this. Think about your own friendships and relationships that are the dear to your heart. Chances are that you trust them deeply, if not completely. Christ is calling us to a closer relationship with Him. Yet, how can we become more intimate, if we aren’t willing to trust Him fully with our whole being.
Trusting Him isn’t easy when the bills are piling up, and you're feeling pulled in different directions by family friends and coworkers. Throw into this mix, various kinds of stress, hurt, pain, financial difficulties, grief, loneliness and abandonment to name a few and it’s hard to trust that God wants the best for you and is in control.
It may seem like He’s not in control. But he is. The key word is “seem”. It may seem like he abandoned you but he didn’t. It may seem like he doesn’t care but he does and in a way that’s beyond comprehension. It may even seem like you might not be on the right path. Your strife might be there because you are doing His will and needs to be considered when discerning.
I remember a period in which I was extremely stressed. I had been feeling like the Lord stopped talking to me. Sometimes I was okay with this and figured the Lord wanted me to go deeper in my trust in Him. But other times, when things got very difficult I would doubt that he cared or was mad at me for making mistakes. One day, I had very little sleep and I couldn’t find my wallet.
I spent two hours looking everywhere and began to feel a complete panic. I already had too much to do and this search was preventing me from getting these things done. And of course I worried what if someone stole that wallet. I was furious at myself for being careless in losing this. I surrendered this to Christ. Shortly after, I took it back and worried. Again, I surrendered it to Christ and two minutes later threw another scene and then asked for forgiveness. This roller coaster ride was constant and was exhausting. I was absolutely sure that my wallet was gone since I had looked at every possible nook and cranny at least so I thought.
And then I found it. I felt peace. I took it to God in prayer. I held on to to this wallet tightly as I thanked him. I got a sense that God was saying to my heart, “The wallet was here the whole time. It didn’t seem like it, but it was. I’m here all the time. It might not seem like it but I am. Trust in me when things seem unbearable or scary. I am always here”.
I felt a peace and realized that He was in control. This experience was another lesson in letting go and trusting in Him. It may seem like He’s not there and it may even seem like a hopeless situation. But Christ is our light of hope in every situation.
We aren’t alone in this. Jesus experienced this as well. He cried out to the father while he hung on the cross and asked, “Father, why have you abandoned me”? It may have seemed like he was abandoned but he wasn’t. The father was in control and had a perfect plan of salvation in place because of His deep and profound love for us.
The Divine Mercy chaplet given to Saint Faustina by Jesus is a wonderful prayer that can help deepen our trust in Christ. I especially think the closing prayer can be very helpful during trials and difficult moments.
Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself. Jesus I trust in you.